Not being able to write

hi, I'm back.

It’s been four weeks since I last wrote to you.

Yeah, four whole weeks.

I got into uni.

And honestly, I could’ve written. I had the time, I just didn’t. I kept making silly excuses. And to be fair, I also had no idea what to write about (haven't been reading or exploring well lately).

So yeah, this is me showing up to say I’m back. Expect more posts from me again.

Now, about uni, since I know you’d ask.

It’s... normal. Like, absolutely normal. No excitement, no euphoria, nothing. ok I lied, it's nice.

For me, the only reason I’m here is to actually learn. I’ve always had this thought that if you can get the knowledge outside uni, then what’s the point of going?

But well, I’m here anyway.

And I almost burned out already. I think I overestimated how much I could handle. Maybe it’s the curse of being too curious, or too ambitious - take your pick.

My first two weeks were actually nice though. For the first time in a long while, I found myself spending real time with people - moving together, doing random things, just existing in a group. It felt strange but... nice.

Funny thing: a lot of people already know me. Meanwhile, I barely know half of them. Someone would just say, ‘Abdulrahmon, how far?’ and I’ll be like, wait, how do you even know my name?

Then they’ll go, “Who doesn’t know Abdulrahmon?”

I still don’t know what that means, but okay 😭

Anyway, I finally got to apply my coding skills to a real-life problem.

Wait, have I ever told you guys I code? Well, now you know.

I started learning Python a few months back (I wrote about it), and it’s finally paying off. somehow.

Still, I’m trying to level up my skills. There’s this constant battle in my head: should I build more projects or should I learn more first? No clear winner yet.

Anyway, I built a website for my department.

Here’s the story: we always have to pay for stuff (manuals, attendance, all those small small things) and our HOC’s WhatsApp was on the brink of collapse. Everyone kept sending payment receipts and details.

So I thought, why not build a mobile web app where everyone can upload their receipts and info? Then the HOC can log into a dashboard and see everything clearly.

No more endless WhatsApp messages. The poor guy’s phone was about to explode 😂.

That project did three things:

• Made me mildly known.

• Messed up my study schedule, a little bit. but we're so back.

• Got me a job, which I actually had to turn down. (skill issue and, well… school 😭)

I spent two full days and nights trying to finish it fast, probably the fastest i’ve ever completed a project

Lately, I’ve also been thinking of getting involved in things outside school. I want to explore more extracurriculars, volunteering, even random activities.

Somehow, I found myself learning boxing 😹 and I also volunteered to help coordinate a school event. So that’s happening.

Outside school though, I’ve got about three tech events lined up. The only problem? No money to go 😭. These school people won’t stop collecting money - pay for this, pay for that. My bank app is now one of my most-used apps... how did we get here? 😂😭

Anyway, another week is about to start. Happy new week to you.

I don’t really have anything serious to say today, just gisting and checking in to say I’m back.

Oh, and one more thing. I started a new publication! I haven’t written anything there yet though, but I will soon.

If you’re into science, psychology, or just the art of learning, you might love it.

You’ll need to subscribe separately, though (so if you’re interested, also tell a friend... thank youuuu 🥹).

May this week bring good news, calm days, and kind people to you and your loved ones.

Speaking of people, some are just... Like, is there actual joy in being wicked? 🤦🏼‍♂️ Maybe I’m just too nice, and honestly, that’s probably not going to change.

Anyway, byeeeee. Don’t forget to subscribe, maybe to this.

Or to my other publication here.

I love youuuu 🤦🏼‍♂️

Thanks for listening to my yap session. We’re so back….

also 🌚

What’s one small thing about you that people usually don’t know or notice at first, but you really wish they did?